Welcome to 50!

Turning 50 is a monumental event. I always imagined that at half a century I would be a wise, strong, balanced, kind, confident and powerful woman who had it all figured out.

As it turns out - I'm the same person I've always been. Getting to 50 is the same as getting to any age of your life. Just trying to be the best person you can be.

Cheers! G

Monday, December 3, 2012

First Day of the last year of my 40s

Yesterday was my birthday, and to be honest, it ranked up there with the worst birthdays ever. There was no party, no cake, no gifts, no cards, and no singing the birthday song. I know that the horrible birthday is because of my own hermit-behavior, and depression etc, but that doesn't stop my inner self from feeling lost, alone, and sorry for myself. So, I cried myself to sleep and resolved to get on with things.
This is my new year, and I am going to make it a much better one. I would like to be able to read this on my 50th birthday, look back over the year, and see what amazing changes I've been able to make. It's up to me. With that in mind, it's time to start making changes. I have to set some goals, and learn how to make them happen. Here's a start. I want to journal all of this year - I've been having a hard time finding the motivation to do it - but this is the beginning and here we are. I want to lose about 20 lbs and get in shape so I can feel good about my body again. I want to quit smoking this year. I want to get in better financial shape this year. That's a good start for today.
The next step is to build the steps I need to achieve my goals. Today I am cocooning and licking my wounds and building strength.

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